Vanha jakso - uusi jakso

Altes Jakso - neues Jakso :)

Okay, vielleicht bin ich ein bisschen spät damit, aber naja. Ich habe meine Noten für die erste Periode = Jakso (6Wochen lag, wenn ich mich nicht täusche) letztens erst bekommen. Und, Überraschung, ich war doch nicht so schlecht, wie ich es anfangs erwartet hatte.
Okei, maybe I am a little bit to late, but so what. I have gotten my grades from last period= jakso (6 weeks long, when I am not wrong)one week ago. And, suprise, I was not that bad as I expected.



Ich habe eine 8 in Englisch, eine 6 in Mathe, eine 9 in Kunst und ein S, für Teilgenommen in Geschichte. Und Hei, es ist gar nicht so schlecht, wenn man bedenkt, dass die Noten hier von 4 bis 10 gehen und 10 das beste ist. Was mich sehr schockiert hat, war nur, dass ich immer noch besser war als manch anderer finnischer Schüler...
I have go a 8 in english, a 6 in maths, a 9 in arts and an S, for took part in, in history. And hey, that is not bad, if you think about that the grades go from 4 to 10 and 10 is the best. The only thing that was shocking was that I was still better than some other finnish students...



Genau und nun hat das neue Jakso auch schon vor 3 Wochen angefangen. Ich habe es sogar endlich geschafft, alle Bücher zusammen zu bekommen, ohne ein einziges Kaufen zu müssen. Das ist echt wunderbar, wenn man bedenkt, dass ich beim letzten Mal benahe 200 Euro für Bücher ausgeben musste. Aber das ist Finnland, einfach nur viel zu teuer...
Yes and now the new Jakso has already started 3 weeks ago. And I finally got it to get all my school books without buying them. That is so great because last time I almost spend 200 euros on books. But this is Finland, just way too expensive...

Ich habe jetzt Deutsch, Chemie, mal wieder Kunst, und ganz viel Französisch. Und wer jetzt glaubt, dass Chemie bestimmt total schwer für mich sein muss in finnish, naja, es geht, ich denke, dass ich alles schon mal in Deutschland hatte. Wirklich zu schaffen macht mir nur Französisch. Ich habe 2 Kurse. Den ersten und den vierten Kurs. Der erste ist ja noch total leicht, aber am anderen verzweifel ich regelmäßig, weil ich immer zu finnish und französisch mixe und es einfach viel zu hart ist, zwei Sprachen, die man beide nicht so wirklich beherrscht gleichzeiting zu lernen...
Now I have German, Chemistry, again Arts and lots of French. If you think now, that Chemistry must be very hard: it is actually pretty okay, because I think I had the same things in Germany before. Really hard ist just French. Ich have two courses of it. The first and the forth one. The first one is still really easy but the other one is constantly driving me crazy, because I mix up Finnish and French and it is just way to difficuld to learn two languages you don't really know at the same time...

Katso, tää oli mun syksy suomessa

... Schaut, so sah dann mein finnischer Herbst aus:)











... und jetzt kommt der Winter bald
... ja nyt talvi tulee

Experience of a lifetime?

Well, yeah. 10 weeks of Finland now.

And what happened?

- Way too much for me, I guess. At least it feels like that. I will probably be thankful for all the experiences and things I had to handle later on, but now it still feels awkward, stressing and just bad. Two weeks ago I finally decided to leave my old host family, because we just couldn’t get along anymore and I felt uncountable and not accepted for what I am. It is funny that I made the decision to leave on the most finnish way. In Sauna.
And then the hard time started. I had to explain my problem way too often, I was crying way too much, like I had red rings beyond my eyes for some days and I felt so lost and homeless I never felt before in my life. Guess how awkward it was to live in a family that you will leave in some days because it didn’t work and you don’t know how they will act with you now. Try not to get a break down when they tell you on the day you where supposed to move that plans changed and you have to stay for one more week. And then try to trust people again when they call again that plans changed again and you will move in 3 hours. And then you move, and move… and move. Without knowing where you will end up. The only nice things in your life are your friends. And finally you suppose to lose them, too, because you are not sure that someone in town could take you to their place and you are scared of going to Lapland or worse and a new new-start.
As exchange student you have to have a life that you can always put in a suitcase.
Actually I didn’t expect this. Of course not. I expected a nice year with a nice family, friends and so on. Why is it just so hard? Why me? Why we? I mean, all my friends, who went on exchange have problems. Some of them are already back home. What the f**** is wrong?
But I am already very sure that this is an experience of a lifetime. That would have never happened to me, when I would have stayed home. But I wouldn’t have made so many nice experiences. I really have friends here (I am so so so so thankful that I have you, guys <3), I met so many cool and nice people, I finally live in a town, where you can get what you need, if you compare it with the village I come from and I go to a school where you can really feel good in (even if it is still school). I never thought about going home, I just had to endure some hard times and I of course did survive. I really wished sometimes that there would be a switch in my head where I could just turn feelings of. But now things are going to be good hopefully. And I hope that I could move to a new host family soon, but I can already see a light and the dark in that case. And I am good in packing now. Even if I already miss some socks :-)

So, stay tuned guys. More exact explanations later on ;)